Posted by frozen_inside at 10:30 PM on November 17, 2010.
You will get what you deserve and I hope you will get it in a hard way.. I really hate you!! I won't wish bad things for you but definitely neither good.. Sooner you will realize that you are no good like the rest!!
Currently feeling: angry
Posted by frozen_inside at 01:47 AM on August 28, 2010.
I spent my week out of town, going out with friends and had sex with a guy whom I'm not in love with.
I've been seeing this guy for almost two years and I still can't say that my feelings for him grew nor even I wonder if there is an emotion to grow. I am feeling nothing but just mere friendship. He wants me so bad and he even said that he loves me. For almost two years, we only had sex twice and those times were just for fun, at least for me..
I don't know if I really don't like him or I am just afraid to commit again. After years of his perseverance, I am starting to like him, but it wasn't enough for me. I wish he would find someone who will reciprocate to his actions because I feel that I am just wasting his time. I like him as a person, as a friend, nothing more than that. I know he's not the right one for me.
I always thought of having a partner but I really don't know what's preventing me on having one. Maybe if I would meet the right person who is worth the pain and the risk then I can start again. I just want someone who will meet my standards not just physically but emotionally and spiritually as well.
Currently listening to: Back for Good by Take That
Currently feeling: drained
Posted by frozen_inside at 03:51 PM on August 19, 2010.
I'm not excited for this day though I will be going out of town with friends. Something is missing. I just want to relax on my own. It's like soul searching that I really need but I have company with me so how could I find my lost self when I am distracted by the fact that people are surrounding me. I want to go to a place where no one knows me and I don't know no one neither. Hope this trip would be a good one.
Currently listening to: Sound of Traffic
Currently reading: Blogs
Currently watching: Moving Vehicles
Currently feeling: hopeful